When I'm angry, I don't want to work. I don't want to get things done, I don't want to be helpful, and I don't want to help myself feel better.
Anger is such a powerful emotion that I wish I could channel it into work. Imagine how much I could get done if I took all that negative energy and turned it into completed tasks.
But instead I keep it inside. I'm afraid of conflict, afraid of the consequences, and it's just easier to avoid, stay in bed, and be complacent in the problem by not dealing with it.
Often my anger is at God for allowing something I don't like to happen, or at myself for messing up. But I can take that anger out on others because I can't handle the pain of blaming myself, and sometimes God doesn't seem to be answering my pleas and prayers.
But he is always working.
Even when nothing seems to be happening.
When things are getting worse, when nothing is improving, God is working.
God is with us.
"Out of my distress I called on the LORD;
the LORD answered me and set me free.
The LORD is on my side; I will not fear.
What can man do to me?
The LORD is on my side as my helper;
I shall look in triumph on those who hate me.
It is better to take refuge in the LORD
than to trust in man." Psalm 118:5-8
What do you wish God was doing differently?
Who are you struggling to forgive in your life, and how are you responding to them?