God's response to Habakuk: “Write the vision; make it plain on tablets, so he may run who reads it. For still the vision awaits the appointed time; it hastens to the end - it will not lie. If it seems slow, wait for it; it will surely come; it will not delay.” Habakuk 2:2-3 (via Nate Pruitt)
What is my vision? The redemption of our mistakes. It’s ok to be who we are. He loves us. He’s not disappointed in us. When we get angry, bitter, want to quit, actually quit, change our job titles to tv-critic-at-home, God is still there. He still likes us. Just as we can’t earn his love, earn brownie points, work our way to heaven in any way, so we cannot make him hate us, pound his fist in anger, or give us angry glances. He does not hold grudges, count up our offenses, or love us conditionally.
He made us the way we are, and that’s ok. We need all of us. God did not make a mistake. You’re not too loud, too quiet, too forgetful, too selfish, too depressed, for God to use all of you, your faults and your fears, your triumphs - with God’s help. Just like in a Wrinkle in time when Meg is given her faults - your faults don’t discount you. God can use those too, and often does. He has a beautiful plan which we cannot see because he is big and we are small.
We can’t change our sinful nature. We are all here making mistakes. God really likes us. He is able to forgive everything. Not like me - conditionally, “as long as it doesn’t happen again,” “only if you buy me ice cream or flowers to make it up to me.” No conditions. Just love.
"If the vision seems slow" - this was the Old Testament. They were riding on camels.
“It will surely come. It will not delay.” There’s no delay - it will be the right time. If it’s not now, it’s because not is not the right time.
Wait. Be faithful. Trust God. Listen.
When the time comes, jump.
This is me. I’m jumping now. It’s exciting. And really really hard.